Never can say, “Goodbye.”

(Que Jackson 5’s, ‘Never Can Say Goodbye’)

It’s hard to let go of something that won’t let your mind rest. The brick and mortar closed last June, which was almost devastating…no, it was absolutely devastating. The mobile truck was repossessed…not so much devastating, but still hurtful. Everything that I created and built was slowly being taken. In hindsight, I guess it had to happen that way because I would’ve held onto it for too long. Where we were located, was like staying in a bad relationship with the expectation of seeing potential, but deep down there wasn’t any. I had actually been warned about going to that location, I saw people walk away the day of the open house and there were so many other red flags, but I chose to stay.

I feel the same way about some of my favorite heels that kill my feet, when I dust them off to wear them. And they’re soooo cute, but I also know my feet and other parts of my body are being poorly effected. And isn’t it the oddest thing, that we choose to hold onto something or ignore warning signs, when it’s bad for us or eventually become a bad situation. Is it trying to beat the odds and prove everyone wrong? Or Is it just rebellion? What is that thing that prevents us from letting go?

By the way, I just bought a gorgeous pair of Betsy Johnson’s, for a wedding I’ll be in. Flats were an option to wear, but I couldn’t resist. I’m also a bit annoyed anyways, because I have some really cute flats that just started hurting my feet…my supposed ally.

My next my post, will be on Bunions and I was going to talk about slowly transitioning out of heels, but I haven’t transitioned (completely), so we’ll skip that blurb.

This will be a slow process, because changing habits just naturally take time; but also, I’ll sacrifice a couple of hours of pain to keep it cute. I wouldn’t suggest it, but I just can’t say goodbye.

Honestly,

Br’Jhai

***New favorite shoe: Hey Dudes*** (madly in love)